vanity of vanities, all is vanity

I missed the first two weeks of cross country practice at Edina because I was hanging out at the World Champs. It was great to be there today and have all the boys ask about the experience. I needed that. There are lessons to be passed on to these boys. Big lessons.

Yet, I am still digesting the whole Berlin experience. One of the biggest lessons I have taken away from 'it' ... sometimes it's okay to get sad or angry or depressed afterwards. But rather than fight against it like it's wrong and some kind of disorder, maybe I just relax into the emotion(s) and ride it through until it's over. Even though it didn't happen exactly how I envisioned, it doesn't have to be a gut-wrenching experience.

It's good to experience these extreme emotions: it let's you know you're alive and feeling.

I realize I am way too hard on myself most of the time. But I wanted more than just the fair performance that it was. I am not a 2:18.41 marathoner. I just am not.

I do this thing for the right reasons. I really hope these reasons are enough. I cannot wait for the next marathon.